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This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Alexis April Treece who passed away on February 27, 2005 and was born sleeping like a little angel on February 28, 2005 at Sister's Hospital in Buffalo, New York. We will remember her always and keep her in our hearts where she will always be. Every day that passes brings us one day closer to being with her again.











PLEASE LIGHT A CANDLE FOR ALEXIS BEFORE YOU GO....



In Augest 2004 I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. I took about 3 others because I could not believe it. I went to my Doctor and found out I was 6 weeks pregnant and was to be due April 23,2005.
As soon as I knew I was pregnant I knew I was going to have a little girl. The first name I thought of was Alexis Emily. If we were going to have a boy it was to be Jason Ray Jr. I was going to all my regular visits to my Doctor and my Doctor had a little hard time picking up a heartbeat and I got nervous. He sent me for my first Sonogram on September 22, 2004 and the heartbeat was 171. I was so excited. I was 9 weeks and 4 days. Every apointment I went to he always had a hard time getting a heartbeat. He said to me one day.."Michelle, you must be having a girl because they are so stubborn, they never want us to hear the heartbeat right away." I went for sonograms quite a bit to reasure me everything was going OK with the baby.








On October 21st I had another sonogram and the baby was 7.25 cm and the heartbeat was 154. Finally on  November 24th I had yet another sonogram and was told it was a 80% chance it was a girl.. I was so excited. They said that the baby was so active she did not get to check a second time to see if it was definately a girl.



I was having all the normal cravings and aches  of being pregnant but finally on december 8th I was told it was definatly a girl. Jason decided that maybe we should name her Alexis after her cousin April that passed away when she was 3 months old. So we decided on Alexis April. We were so excited. Everytime we went to the store we bought a cute little outfit. Jason bought one that said "Daddy's little girl"







I loved precious moments as I was growing up so we decided to set her room up in that theme. My mom planned a baby shower for March 6, 2005 and the invitations were even in precious moments. I went looking all over for little decorations for her room.
On Febuary 25th I went to my Doctor and Alexis' heartbeat was normal as always. My doctor said I was showing some signs of Toxima and if I was to get any unusual swelling to call him right away.
Then on February 27th, at 33 weeks pregnant, I was at my mom's house watching a movie. It was about 6:30pm and Alexis had the hiccups. At 7pm I started to get a sharp pain in my stomach. I decided to lay down for a little bit but when the pain just got sharper I called my Doctor. I was told to go right to the hospital. 










My mom took me to Sisters Hospital, which is not far at all from where we live. The drive was horrible, I was in so much pain, I kept telling her to drive faster. When we got to the hospital the nurses were  already waiting for me. They brought me to the triage room where the nurse hooked me up to a machine to get a heartbeat.



The nurse was having a hard time and I kept telling her that she is very active and moves so much that you really have to chase her to get the heartbeat.
About 3 nurses came in to get a heartbeat. I was in so much pain I did not think anything that serious was going on. My mom kept asking what was going on. The Doctor came in herself to get a heartbeat.. but she couldn't. She turned the machine off and said.."I'm sorry your baby has died." I almost died myself when I heard those words. I sat up and asked her what I do next, she told me I needed to deliver her. I went down to the delivery room and my Doctor came in to see me, he said they will not know the cause of death till she was born. I had an epideral at 12 am and was up all night with Jason. 










I kept telling him that the doctors were wrong and Alexis was too strong of a baby to die. I kept saying she will be born crying like we wanted. My water broke at 5 am and they said I will most likely deliver her at about 5 pm that day.
By the morning of February 28th I had started Toxima so bad that my kidneys were starting to fail. I did not even care at the time , I was too worried about my baby. 










Finally, at 5:38pm Alexis was born. She weighed 3 pounds 11 oz and was 17 inches long. She had a head of dark hair and my nose. The cord was wrapped around her neck 2 times. 











 We had Alexis in the hospital room with us for 2 days. In that time we got a lot of pictures and memories of her. We got her first dress and hat she wore, lock of her hair, she was baptized and Jason gave her a bath. 




I am thankful of the memorial we have of her. We had
Alexis cremated and a funeral at our Church for her.
I miss Alexis so much. I look at her pictures everyday.
I will never forget her, she will always be our first-
born little girl.











Then in July I had a pain in my stomach for a couple of days. Finally it was so bad I could not even stand up any more.  Jason rushed me into the hospital, where I was admitted for emergency surgery.  I had
gallstones and they were shutting my liver and pancreas down.  I was in the hospital for five days
just for that.



We tried for a baby in August and in September I took a test and it was positive.  I was so happy but also so scared.  I had a sonogram and there was fluid in my pelvis that they did not know where it was from.  My Doctor said I will be at high risk.  I had 2 more sonograms after that because I was having some pain.  I had 2 sonograms in a one week period.  The last one I had showed no change from the first one.  The baby had stopped growing.  My Doctor said it was a miscarriage and that the fetus just never took. (Started growing.) I am completely devistated.  I can't even believe this.  What did we do to deserve this?  I have been told so many times that after you experience a stillborn, the next pregnancy is most likely to be a perfect one with a healthy baby in the end.  I guess we were not going to be so lucky this time.






For all the Moms and Dads out there who have lost a baby due to stillborn, I know it hurts so much.  I can't really even describe the pain I am going through.  People say to get over it, it was 7 months ago, you will have other children, and so on.  That's NOT fair, this was my baby, she was to be here with Jason and I, NOT GOD.  I know in time I will feel better, but I will NEVER get over this and I will always cry for my babies I never got to raise.














A single tear streamed down your cheek
on that very happy day
The day Mommy told you the exciting news
that I was on the way.

I couldn't wait to meet you
for a big kiss and maybe a twirl
Because I knew that I could be rest assured
that I would be Daddy's little girl.

Remember on that special day
when you heard my heart beating so strong
What you didn't know, Daddy, it was beating for you
The time we'd meet, it wouldn't be long.

I may have been so tiny
but Mommy, she felt my touch
I wanted to let you both know
that i loved you so very much.

Then one day I woke up
to only see colors so bright
Was it, was this the big day?
Would my Daddy be holding me tonight?

Then came sweet Jesus, he picked me up
and cradled me in his arms
He told me that in this place called Heaven
to me, would come no harm.

He told me it might be a little while
'til my Daddy could give me a kiss
But until that wonderful day
I would live in eternal bliss.

Daddy, I know you were sad
it felt like the end of the world
But please, daddy, always remember
I'm still Daddy's little girl.

I want you to know that I have your eyes
and Mommy's long blonde hair
Mommy, she says you have a silly smile
But on my lips, your smile is always there.

Daddy, you may never see my first step
or catch me when I fall
You may not take me to my first day of school
or my graduation at all.

You may never walk me down the aisle
on my beautiful wedding day
Or be there for me to hug
When I learn my own baby is on the way.

Daddy, I don't know why we've been parted
but I love you so very much
I wish we could be together for just a moment
So my soft baby skin you could touch.

But, daddy, I still have a big hug for you
I'm sending it down your way
because I'll always be daddy's little girl.

Written by: Julie Smith



Still Daddy's Little Girl







I want to thank the following people:



Mom (Darlene Riederer): Thank you for being there for us in our time of need and being so supportive. You were there for us thoughout the whole time I was pregnant and was there when I found out we were having a girl. Alexis was the little girl who made it the 4 generations of girls in our family. 






 
Dad (Gary Riederer): Thank you for being there for us when we needed your support. I know it was hard to come to the hospital to see Alexis but you did and we thank you very much for that. 







Aunt Debby: Thank you for everything you have done. April now has her little cousin with her to play with. I know they are always watching over us and making sure we are OK.








Grandma: I was so excited when I found out I was having a girl because she made it the 4 generations. I could not wait till I had a picture of all of us. We have that picture now but not like I wanted it. Thank you for everything you have done. I know Grandpa is watching over Alexis and talking care of her till we are there to do it. 







Jessica Riederer: Alexis is your first neice. You were always telling us how you and Amanda were going to teach her cheerleading. Well now everytime you are cheerleading Alexis is right there next to you. Thank you for understanding what happen at such a young age and just realizing what Alexis means to us.



Jennifer Riederer: We chose you to be Alexis godmother because you are special to us. Thank you for your support.



Eric and Nick Riederer: I love you too so much. I love it when you 2 come over and kiss Alexis' picture and ask when she is comming home. Eric , you always reply "well I will fly a balloon up in the sky to get her" and Nick you rub my stomach and say she is still in there. You 2 are very special to us. And I know Alexis is watching over you both.



Amanda Geary: Thank you for comming to the hospial to see Alexis. We have many pictures of you with her. I love the letter you wrote for me. It is beautiful and means so much to me.



Aunt Sandy: Thank you for being at the hospital with me when I had Alexis. Your support means alot to us. 



Lisa W: I was not suprised to see you in the hospital, you are always there for everyone when they need you. We chose you to do a reading in the church because you mean so much and we thank you for your support. 





Jennie and Emma Reid: I dont know how to thank you for all you have done for Jason and I. I love the picture you had drawn of Jason, Alexis and myself. I will cherish it forever. Thank you for the sponsering of this website. 



Grandma and Grandpa Riederer: Thank you for your support in our time of need.



Dad Treece: Thank you for your support.We wish you would have had the chance to hold our little angel. We understand. 




Aunt Linda Treece: Thank you for all the talks on the phone when we just really needed someone to talk to. Even though you live so far away you are always just a phone call away.



Aunt Vikky Treece: Thank you for your support. I know it is hard for you also because you have experienced the loss of a child. We now have angels in heaven watching over us.


 
Nanette: Thank  you for the cross you had blessed and gave to us at the funeral. I hang it with all her things. Your support means alot. 



Fran Kane (nurse from hospital): We thank you so much for everything you have done. If it wasnt for you I would never have thought to get the memories of Alexis that I have. I know if I ever need to talk that you will be there for either one of us and that is so much appreciated.



Nurses and staff at Dr. Bartels office: Thank you for being so thoughful and taking the extra time with me after our loss. 



Dr. Bartels: You did a excellent job with me and Alexis while I was pregnant.  You came to the hospital everyday to see me and that meant alot, just knowing that you cared that much of comming before and after your shift started in your office. You even called me when I was home just to make sure I was hanging in there. You went the extra mile to make sure I will get thru this the best I can. I love having you as my doctor.




To anyone I did not mention, I am sorry and I do thank you for your support. It does mean alot to know that there are people who really do care.
 







Thank you to all the

people who have lit a candle and

left wonderful words of

comfort.....




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Tributes and Condolences
So Very Sorry for Your Loss   / Melissa Eiler (Visitor~Daughter of Irwin & Renee Eiler )
GOD BLESS YOU LITTLE ANGEL   / Leslie (None)
I am soo sorry for the loss of your Beautiful Daughter. May she REST IN PEACE. She is always with you and always watching over you. Please feel free to visit my site.

julius-stanglin.memory-of.com
Happy Easter   / Tamara(Hunters Mom) Vongphrachanh (mom to an angel )
Thinking of you   / Tamara(Hunters Mom) Vongphrachanh (mom to an angel )
Alexis is a beautiful angel.your family is in my thoughts and prayers.Alexis send your family lots of love and angel kisses.
Your little brother is here!!!!   / Mommy
Your little brother Jason was born Saturday October 7,2006 at 12:51pm. He was 6 pounds 2.4 oz and 20 1/2 inches.
I cant belive what happened to you almost happend to him. I was in the operation room and the c section had started and all the sudd...  Continue >>
HEALED OF THE PAIN  / Sheeda K.     Read >>
Alexis you are loved and missed!  / Courtney Morris (Mommy to Parker and Grace )    Read >>
Alexis....^i^ / Melisa Cooper (~Amanda's Mom~ )    Read >>
Just Checking In On You, Sweet Angel, Alexis....^i^  / Melisa Cooper (~Amanda's Mom~ )    Read >>
ALEXIS THINKING OF YOU PRECIOUS ANGEL  / DELIA ALLAN TOMLIN'S MUM     Read >>
one more  / Selma     Read >>
this is one site  / Selma     Read >>
YOUR GOINGTO HAVE AW LITTLE BROTHER TO WATCH OVER  / Mommy And Daddy     Read >>
Happy ^i^ Mother's Day, Michelle <3  / Barbie Schmidt (^i^Sarah's mommy )    Read >>
HAPPY EASTER  / SELMA FLYNN     Read >>
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Her legacy
OUR DREAMS  
Alexis was a very active little girl. While I was pregnant Jason and I would always say she was going to be a little wild one. Her Aunt Jessica was going to teach her cheerleading. We said we were going to put her in soccer and she would be the happiest little girl.
We had alot of dreams for Alexis.

Because Alexis never had a chance to do any of this, i am changing this page to POEMS
The poem called ..Just say I'm sorry... is my favorite. It tells you in the poem how I really am thinking .

JUST SAY "I'M SORRY"

You don't know how I feel; please dont tell me that you do.
There's just one wasy to know.. have you lost a child too?
"You'll have another child" ... must I hear that everyday?
Can I get another mother, too, if mine should pass away?

Dont say it was "God's will "... that is not the God I know.
Would God, on purpose, break my heart, then watch as my tears flow?
"You have an angel in heaven.. a precious child above." But tell me, to whom here on earth should I give all this love?

"Aren't you better yet?" Is  that what I heard you say?
NO! A part of my heart aches and I'll always feel some pain.
You think that silence is kind, but it hurts me even more.
I want to talk about my child who has gone thru death's door.

Dont say theses things to me, although you mean well.
They do not make my pain go away; I must go thru this hell.
I will get better, slow but sure..and it helps to have you near.
But a simple "I'm sorry you lost your child" is all I need to hear.



A LOST DREAM

You were here.
Am I the only one who saw you?
I saw your birth. I felt the overwhelming joy.
I touched your baby soft skin
And your silky hair.
I saw you take your first steps
I heard your first word.
I felt your hugs
And your sloppy kisses.
I saw your graduation.
Your first date, your prom, and your wedding...
I even held your babies.
I saw it all...
All of this in my first weeks of pregnancy.
Now they say you are gone...
I hear people say,
"...at least you lost her before you got to know her."
Like you werent really a person yet.
But I saw you...I knew you... I will never forget you
.
Who you'd be today BY Kenny Chesney  
Sunny Days seem to hurt the most
I wear ythe pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still cant believe your gone

It aint fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today

Would you see the world, would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what you would name your babies
Somedays the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know
I'll see you again someday.
BEREAVED PARENTS WISH LIST  

Bereaved Parents Wish List

I wish Alexis hadn't died. I wish I had her back.

I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my child's name. Alexis
lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that she was
important to you also.

If I cry and get emotional when you talk about Alexis, I wish you
knew that it isn't because you have hurt me. Alexis death is the
cause of my tears. You have talked about my child and you have
allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both.

Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't
shy away from me. I need you now more than ever.

I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you, but I also want
you to hear about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you
would let me talk about Alexis; my favorite topic of the day.

I know that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my
Alexis death pains you too. I wish you would let me know these
things through a phone call, a card or note, or a real big hug.

I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over. These first years
are traumatic for me, but I wish you could understand that my grief
will never be over. I will suffer the death of Alexis until the day
I die
I am working hard in my recovery, but I wish you could understand
that I will never fully recover. I will always miss Alexis and I
will always grieve that she is dead.

I wish you wouldn't expect me "not to think about it" or "be
happy". Neither will happen for a very long time, so don't frustrate
yourself.

I don't want to have a "Pity party", but I do wish you would let me
grieve. I must hurt before I can heal.

I wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is
miserable for you to be around me when I'm feeling miserable. Please
be as patient with me as I am with you.

When I say, "I'm doing okay", I wish you could understand that I
don't "feel" okay and that I struggle daily.

I wish you knew that all of the grief reactions I'm having are very
normal. Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are
all to be expected. So please excuse me when I'm quiet and withdrawn
or irritable and cranky.

Your advice to "take it one day at a time" is excellent advice.
However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you
could understand that I'm doing good to handle an hour at a time.

Please excuse me if I seem rude, certainly not my intent. Sometimes
the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off. When I walk
away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone.
I wish you understood that grief changes people. When Alexis died,
a big part of me died with her. I am not the same person I was
before Alexis died and I will never be that person again.

I wish very much that you could understand ~ understand my loss and
my grief. But, I pray daily that you will never understand.

(I RECEIVED THIS IN AN EMAIL. IF YOU WANT TO COPY IT, JUST PUT YOUR CHILD'S NAME IN THE SPOT IT GOES IN.)

To my baby angel Alexis  

Not a minute goes by that I am not thinking of you!
Since I found out you were on the way,
I spent every waking hour thinking of you,
how much joy you would bring into our lives.
You were and always will be my darling sweetheart.
I love you so much
and I can't begin to tell you how sad I feel right now
and how much I miss you.
Even though we only had you with us for a short time,
you are my beautiful baby girl
and you are so very precious to me!
I don't know why we've been separated,
but I do know that I will see you again.
I am so excited to be able to hold you in my arms!
To hug and kiss, and love you!
Some may think this is silly of me to write to you,
but who knows, maybe Jesus is reading this to you right now!
I just want you to know that I love you and I always will!
Love, Mommy

MY LITTLE ANGEL  
I felt your presence there inside of me,
nestled safe and warm;
Sweet scent of a baby's breath,
precious words left unadorned.
I saw your tiny heartbeat,
then I knew that you were fine;
A perfect baby we created,
one that would be ours.
Then that tragic day it came, there was nothing I could do.
Only wait and hope for precious life of you.
Yes in the begining your daddy was afraid;
Only us would love you unconditional and never run away.
Your daddy loved you more this I know,
As he cried for you that day,
When the Doctor said you were gone, daddy wanted you to stay.
He would have held you close to him,
and see your perfect form,
A gift of daddy's love would have kept you safe and warm.
Only now  you are an angel over us.
My heart would hurt even more if you cried for me and mommy was not there.
Still we are together in our hearts and memories,
Your still a part of us.
Rest gentle now sweet baby, there is no pain, you are never alone.
I know you are with the other angels and in a peaceful home.
We will come be with you someday,
only now is not our time
Then we will be together again,
and again you will be in our arms that ache for you.

WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALEXIS
 
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